I’ve been keeping my head up for the past 2 years. I’m getting tired of everything.. and stressed over nothing. I haven’t been dreaming these past years. I will never love again. I just hate how much i’ve been hurt, how much pain i’ve suffered these past relationships. Sometimes i just want to close my eyes and let go.
I just wished i could mean the world to someone. I hate being alone and nothing will ever heal the shit that happens to me. Why won’t I ever let anyone in. It’s because of you. I still think about you. I know i shouldn’t but i cant lie to myself anymore. My cups half broken so no matter how much i put in it’s never exciting anymore. Im fucking pathetic. No matter the negative i post. No one cares. So then the question is, why should i ever care about anyone else?
Yeah life fucking sucks.
im not gay